friendship is a forever thing?
i just hope so.
sigh. i got hurt by words. isn't it amazing how words can "attack" ppl and leave them deep wounds? i don't know what to say. but the words i heard today was unbearable and hurting. "too bad for the 1st clarinet". what words are these?? i guess he/she (names are not going to be mentioned) doesn't know that these words carries thorns. it pricks. *ouch*
i now give a senario to he/she: something bad happen to the main player of the 1st clarinet and he/she CANNOT play the clarinet anymore. what is going to happen to the section? answer: we will fall. the key words are "main player". sigh. why am i trying to negotiate with he/she? i know it is useless but it really carries too much pricks. too unbearable to continue living in such situation without rebuking.
whatever thing that happened to band today was quite a sad one. we didn't mean to make such a din just for a meet-the-parent(s) session. we just couldn't make up our minds. fickled-minded ppl we are but we just can't help it. who isn't fickle-minded? i was utterly amazed by how some ppl reacted to the situation when we were standing outside the hall. perhaps i am still looking fun and not seriousness. i guess the problem lies within myself, not the others. so maybe it does lies with some others. but i know that mainly, it is my own problem.
seniors and friends. i really don't know who shld i be siding. don't they (names shall not be mentioned) get it? each side has got its correct points and wrong points. to me, i feel that it is the seniors' side that is the correct side. their actions and words makes MORE sense than the friends' side. what i am suppose to do? side the wrong side just beside they are friends? no way. i prefer to go by "right or wrong". i agree with 1 sentence said by the seniors' side. but i know i am not applying to myself. "fight for what you deserve". it is actually giving them a chance to proof that they are up to standard. i am not even given that chance! i missed it actually. and i WASN'T given another! sigh. nvm. what's over is over. what's done can't be undone.