is the world going against me?
or was it my own imaginations?
exams are going to be over soon. hmm. one more paper. just one more. and I REGAINED FREEDOM! tmr isn't really a great day for me to celebrate anything for the regain of my freedom. this is the plan for tmr: 8am-10am will be the art paper. then i will meet kiesha and we we go home together. hopefully we are able to get back the taste of the long lost chocolate taste. lol. 7.30pm will be the SAJCCB concert! yay! i've been waiting for this concert for quite a long time and now, the day has finally arrived. after the concert, me, deariie and daffy are going for dinner out. i not sure about kiesha but the 3 of us are most probably going. yes! i shall have a sumptuous dinner. the post-exam relaxation is getting into me right now! gosh. tmr's art paper will be a difficult one to score. but nvm, i never did scored in art anyways. haha. but i am quite worried for my other papers. esp history. history is the EOY exam, not MYE. lit wasn't that ez either. maths was the worst. i stumbled on them all. nvm. what's over is over. i shall not talk about it. i shall end with this: i flunked everything.
i've been really thinking over things lately. i was thinking since half a year is going to be gone soon, so i want to settle some matters in my mind. i decided on this (my msn personal msg) - "rmb: it only exists in my heart.not in my actions anymore". well, i thought that maybe i shld always try out new solutions. but no matter what, i won't give up. kill me, shot me, slap me, do anything to me, BUT i still won't give up. no such thing. i can cover up things, but the actual truth is: never give up. i really want to talk to him. seeing him every weekday, but i can't talk to him or smile. i feel sick. if one day the sky falls, i will save him first. he means everything to me. but i mean nothing to him. haiz. the most memorable day of my life was the day we talked non-stop throughout the whole band practice last year. i think it has been about 11 mths ago. but i will always rmb that day. it only exists in my heart. i am really afraid. *-*
band performance @ sentosa next sunday, 14 May 06. i hope that it will be confirmed. but i heard that it will only be confirmed only when the sec4 are coming back to help us out. say truely, i feel that the band is falling apart. our relationships within each section are falling. nevertheless to say about the relationships btw the sec4 and sec2 or the sec1. i think the sec1 aren't even 1% near getting close with them. it is no ez job with this batch. although they are all nice ppl. really. they are very nice ppl. but btw them? i don't know what happened. it is just a very bad feeling coming through me. i guess within the big band, there is more than me who feels this. i just hope that this feeling will be wrong for all of us.
remarkable results!