*my memory lane*
a mixture of feelings and thoughts
what's there will always be there forever
singapore idol is such a comedy. i sat there in front of the tv pouting over the lost of freedom of my phone. and before i knew it, i was laughing as if i had never laughed before! it was really so funny. "kung-fu" rapper. singapore cowboy. the fake model. haha. they all very funny la. *laughs* there are even "nominees" for the "shortest time in the room". erms. i forgot the exact name but it is something like that. haha. a woman went into the room and cracked a pitch and she told the judges: "can u just tell me "no" so that i can go out?" wth. where got such thing la. haha. she took about 6.22 sec. break record! haha. there is another man even funnier. i think it was "who has got the longest breathe". that guy was SO funny! *laughs* even dick lee was going on with his longggggggggggg pitch. haha. another guy sang "NONG NONG ago". that guy also very funny. haha. actually i think some purposely do that to "gain" some fame. fakers! haha. joking.
i am so wanna kill josiah! he is such a "NICE" guy. *pukes* he anyhow go spread things that are NOT true! ok la. only one of them is true. BUT he exaggerated it! gaa. my heart don't beat that fast every single second KK? ~well. actually got some other true statements here but i was FORCED by that "NICE" guy to delete. gawsh.
lalala. i got back my handphone today! my mom decided that since i can survive so many days without handphone then must well she give me back. haha. actually it doesn't really make a difference to me. haha. not that i don't msg. ehhs. actually it does make a difference for the beginning of each mths. but i guess, no more such things. sigh. i am so gonna suffer my days without anybody to hear out my blabbering of chunks and loads of complains. sigh. i still haven bite anybody. i decided to bite myself. *bites* perharps i shld learn not to ignore ppl anymore. *ignores* aren't a very nice phrase to use. but i used it. sigh. i think i am regretting. nvm. what's done, is done. sometimes i just love sports day. esp this year. sigh. i hope that i won't lose a friend so fast. a saying goes: once a friend always a friend. well, does it really exist? i hope i can get it proven as soon as possible now that i got my phone back. SIGH.
shalalalala. miaoting and jill told me that theodora is giving them leblanc clarinets. sigh. i don't understand theodora. she is so hard to understand. sigh sigh sigh. personal grudges aren't very nice to play with in such a situation. nvm. actually i really don't understand! why? why? why? somethings can't be typed out here in words. some things are just meant to be said verbally or just for a few ppl to hear. say truely, is not i not happy with jill and miaoting taking leblanc. is just another matter. nobody can understand how i feel. but i really got the urge to tell SOMEONE about this. although i won't get any answers, but at least i did tell SOMEONE rather than keeping everything to myself. there are times when i really suffered myself. *ouch*
lately i feel that the distance btw me and daffy, jilly and miaoting is drifting further. i think is my own personal grudge. i think that they don't understand me. personally i feel that the best time when i ever feel that there is someone that understood was last year. surprise to the others. well, it is linying. but what's over is over. anyways. i think i screwed up our friendship. nvm. over liao. that time was really so nice. she helped me made some new friends, we shared secrets and discuss about many things. but now? i guess i have to learn to forget about things and know more ppl. though i can't find another friend that could share my woes, at least i found friends that could make me laugh. daffy, jilly and miaoting. haha. but i guess those time are adding on to "my memory lane" and no longer in the present. we need to talk. but i guess none are interested. nvm. perharps things shld come and go. but "once a friend, always a friend" :)
gaa. band. juniors. seniors. the pressure is adding on? or minusing? i not sure. maybe both. the feeling of not beside Wai Kit and theodora has changed me into another player. i am kinda getting used to the times when i am the only 1st clarinetist left in the band. the week before the performance @ sentosa. theodora went to OBS. Wai Kit stepped down. xianmin didn't wanted to pull us down. and so? i was left alone. it was only when theodora came back that mr tan got help from hua yi. gaa. the 2 days were awful. actually is 1 1/2 day. the 2nd day, Wai Kit came back till about 1 hour before band ends, he went home. (erms. he just went somewhere.) sinfonia classica kept me shivering whole day long. but luckily 2nd day, Wai Kit came back and we played together. i could tell everybody: that was one of the BEST band practice i ever wanted. we shared file and the music was quite nice. only that, erm, the tuning was out. the both of us couldn't get in tune. i guess theodora is right. i didn't tongue hard enough to get in tune properly.
anyways. clarinet section has changed a bit. this is the seating arrangment currently: (from mr tan's left to right) [1st clarinet] theodora (Eb clarinetist). christabelle. me(: .angeline. [2nd clarinet] miaoting. verine. huiwen. [3rd clarinet] jill. isabelle. justin. kenneth. benjamin. yuanqi. jolene. cyndi. erms. kiesha was shifted to the 2nd row, which is with the lower woodwinds. mr tan commented that 3rd clarinet there sounded much more quieter. haha. actually maybe not. haha. bjorn + benjamin = insulting jokers! they just can't stop commenting about anything. haha. they had got the hang of saying that i have no brains. gaa. i have! they like laughing at my blur-ness too. heys. not my fault la. haha. it just that i at times, i really can't understand what they talking about. and my vocabulary isn't that good as theirs! that's the problem! gaa. i need a walking dictionary. kiesha is tired of being one. haha. but i really want to understand. i am gaining more common sense from the talks of the 3 of them. hmm. it is making me feel glad. XD
remarkable results!