one love is all it takes,
to be blinded by truths and lies.
exams are over and i am.... FREE! yay! actually i din really feel any difference btw the days of examinations and the days without examinations. with or without exams, i still have many things to study and learn. i really felt like quitting my tuition once and for all despite my horrifying grades. i really got no interest in my tuition now. i just want to depend on myself. i hardly depent on my tuition coz i feel that it teaches me rot. don't ask me why but the work they give me, makes me feel as if they think that i am stupid. i really hate to be labelled as stupid. labels... hmm. remind me of my hcl exam the compo i wrote. it was about 5-pages long. i think this is the longest i wrote since like 3 years? haha. maybe longer. i don't really rmb. i only know i like to write short compo and pass them all. haha. now i am in this sick mood. i want to fall ill. then i will know who cares for me. haha. lol. what rubbish am i blabbering about? well. i just felt like falling ill. a high fever. i had never stayed in the hospital before. hmm. i wonder how issit like there. haha. lol.
the world is crumpling under my dear feet. crumpler rawks! kiesha has done evil to me. she made me went crazy about gundam. and maybe bleach too. kira & lacus. athrun & cagalli. shinn & lunamaria. I LOVE THEM ALL! i want to see their seeds break. haha. i am sadist. once their seeds break then they can't control themselves. haha. but i thought it sounds cool. purple, green and RED. oOo. i love them! i want to buy their figurines. but one figurine cost about $7. i have no money for all 4 which costs $28. i find the smaller ones cuter. $4.50 each if i didn't rmb wrongly. how wish someone would buy them all for me! haha. oh yeah. i want to buy maple cash card as a belated birthday present. wonder which one shld i buy. i shall grab kiesha and we shall go look for it together. haha. i think she plays maple. i don't know and i forgot. haha. daffy plays maple. but i don't think she will accompany me to buy. haha. nvm. MY INSTINCT shall led the way. haha. lol. bleahx. XP
tmr is band practice day! yes yay yahooO! i am looking so forward to band practices resuming again. haha. i enjoy the days when every band was in the beginning of thie year - meaning during the period of sec1 orientation. not that i don't like the sec1. but i think they are just not serious enough. i got comments that the sec2 are also not serious enough yet. well, maybe. i am trying to be more serious. but i realized that i am in no posts to scream and shout and scold the sec1 or anybody. the only thing that keeps me from not wanting to go band is the change in the new committee. don't ask me if i want a post or not. it was never up to us, the lower sec to choose unless it is a major. but of coz, i know what i want. but sadly, i can't aim for it physically, but only mentally.
yesterday night, my mom brought me to watch m:i:3 at bishan j8. it was quite a nice show. i would give it a rating of 8/10 stars. probably got the show isn't suspending audience enough. but come to think about it, the show did kept us in suspension. the bad guy is still afterall someone who is close to john eden (i think that is his name). pity. but that is the way the show shld goes. haha. nvm. i am no director. bleahx. i hardly watch midnight movies and THERE, i have one last night. haha. YAY!
i think i want to give up now. but i know i gotta stand on what i believe. i will only think of giving up after the year 2006 is over. i stand on my own. i will give all i have. i don't care what ppl think. i am who i am. i am what i want to be. perhaps i am too stubborn. but that is what i am. there is no way to change this thinking. i love myself. XP
2 nights back, 5 may'06, me, kiesha, miaoting and daphne met to go SAJC for a concert by SAJCCB. yay! i looked so forward to that day throughout the whole period of exams. on the way to SAJC from toa payoh interchange, we met huiwen. and daffy was late. she msg me saying that they are now at sentosa!!! i was staring at the msg and i just realized that daffy's dad didnt realized that SAJC has combined with SAS and SAJ to be together as one in SAV. which is at potong pasir. hai. then daffy could only join us after the intermission. the songs all were so GREAT! gosh. how i wish i was in SAJCCB. hai. jonadab looks weird in the hawaii shirt. haha. his was red in color. gulliver's travel was one of the only songs that i know. haha. their encore song is familiar but i dont know what is the song name. hai. they had a short play with every song played. esp after the intermission. i saw my brother's friends sitted in a row together. haha. they all stood up after their friend, moses (i not sure about the spelling) sang a song. haha. i rmb him. he was SAJCCB's last year's student conductor. haha. i rmb! yes yes! i rmb sth finally. haha. anyways. i really did enjoy the whole concert. then in the night, we waited for daffy's bus to come then kiesha, miaoting and i went to 7-11 to eat our dinner - maggi mee. i reached home at about 11+ 12pm. haha. the first time i went home so late after a night with my friends. haha. nice day spent! :)
remarkable results!