time heals wound
but why wouldn't wound heal time?
yay! finally can use the internet after quite a long while. sigh. i signed in to msn and took a look at my contacts. the first contact i saw was Wai Kit's. sigh. his nick goes like this-> :[!Ouch hurt my finger!:[ <- sigh. why did he hurt his finger? issit still hurting? i am feeling the pain. eeks. so rou ma. bleahx. but really, does it still hurt? i felt like asking him but how? he is not online currently. i can only hope that it is not hurting anymore. every stroke of pain strikes, i feel them. i hate to see ppl getting hurt or death. i fear death. i always utter nonsense that i want to die and jump off the building. but i dowan to die. i am afraid of ppl around me leaving me one day. sigh. i want everybody to live forever so we do not need to feel sad. but how?
band has been quite a bit of headache esp when no sectional leaders are appointed yet. sigh. even though we know who is the sectional leader of the clarinet section, but somehow we just know that it is not very appropriate. or issit just how i am thinking? i dunno. theodora is the supposingly sectional leader of the clarinet section. but the past few days she is away in USA. she is migrating there probably either she finish her secondary school or after jc. some of her family lives there so she will have to go back every holidays. she came back just yesterday night supposingly. during the days that she is not in, the clarinet section had some problems surfacing.
the juniors skip band practices for no reason. some of their reasons are just not appropriate. something wrong with them. i dunno what to say about some of them. but from what i see, i think christabelle, justin and yuan qi's attendance is still quite ok. i was thinking of letting justin into 1st clarinet but i know i can't. theodora is the sectional leader. i thought of discussing with theodora but she not online. gaa. christabelle's playing and everything seems quite ok. but her loudness got a bit of problem la. haha. her loudness can't seems to adjust a lot. a bit worst than Wai Kit's loudness. at least he is senior, so he knows how to control a bit more as time goes by. justin can't show much of his potential as he is using plastic clarinet. i arranged for mr tan to give him a RC and he agreed! yes! haha. my first step towards helping out. haha.
i was hoping for Wai Kit to come back for the end-of-year concert at victoria concert hall. sigh. he said that he still considering. how wish he could come and perform with us for the final time as a mayflowerian. *hopes* but if he really dowan then nvm. he got his own reasons. supposingly like the other time at sentosa that performance. he knew that we won't be able to do well as we had so less time to prepare. and he was really right. we all knew it but we still push ourselves to go. at least he went there and help us out with the moving of instrument and stands and he gave us support mentally and emotionally :):)
nowadays, this is my daily routine: at 10pm after watching tv, i settle myself by my study desk with my hse phone and my handphone by my side. i will then take out some easy work and lay them by the table. afterwhich, i dial numbers and start chatting while fakingly doing my work. isn't it a great plan? actually i really am able to concentrate and do my work at times as the speaker will sometimes let me hear some music. yesterday was gundam seed destiny's opening song! :) my favourtie anime ever since kiesha keep chanting the storyline to me and therefore, influencing me. haha. i love gundam! Kira Yamato & Lacus Clyne. Athrun Zala & Cagalli Yula Athha. Shinn Asuka and Lunamaria Hawke. (at first is with Stellar) so on and so forth. but these are the main characters, i supposed. GUNDAM RAWKS! :)XP:)
remarkable results!