appreciate what u have now.
they may not remain the way they are now.
things will be gone sooner or later.
so why not appreciate them when they are still existing?
my blog is dying and i am dying with it.
gachi. now i find youtube irritating. it is like not working properly nowadays. unlike last time when they work quite well. sigh. maybe i just not fated to watch anime. i want to watch gundam seed destiny on sunday morning but i gotta go to the temple. i want to watch bleach continuously in every episode but some are just not there to be found. sigh. i want the video. benedict say there is. kiesha says she help me find. sigh. maybe i just need to do sth about such things. i kinda got used to the days without anime. then ppl start talking about them. so i watched. i only watch two. the 3rd one would probably be naruto or inuyasha. or maybe helsing? haha. dunno leh. after i finish watching the first two then i watch another 3rd anime. haha. gundam and bleach rawks!!! (:
just talked to benedict online. didnt know that he watch so many anime! he have figurines of inu and have the vcd of inu, naruto, captain tzubasa and many more. haha. i want them! his figurines are from japan! gosh. i really want them. i have none at home. i dunno which shall be the first figurine that i will buy. i want bleach real badly. gundam's figurines are quite fake. most slightly i would buy the gundam mobile suit. that reminds me. i just bought the gundam seed destiny poker cards. so nice! i showing it to kiesha on monday. i think maybe i giving her. dunno la. see if she really interested. haha. or not buy the bleach one. $4.80 for one set of poker cards. sigh. dunno if it is expensive or netrual.
just now, a few of us went for lunch together. dongfang, jessica, janice, miaos, jilly, daffy and me. erms. there is another girl too. but i dunno her name. those 2a girls are going for their cip after lunch. we ate at pizza hut. it is so LONG for just 4 pieces of drumlets to arrive at our table. it took like more than half an hour? so small then so long. sigh. me and jilly went outside pizza hut when others are dining in at pizza hut. jilly was unhappy that she had got so less time to eat and she is really hungry. so we went out to amk central. haha. we are being very dramatic. running to food. then we realized that we are standing on a platform. we thought it was the stairs but it is not! is some very huge step. dunno how to describe it. haha. jilly bought 3 slices of cheese cake. i bought 1. haha. she cant finish it then in the end she gave half to me. haha. so she ate 2 1/2 slices of cheese cake and i ate 1 1/2 slice. haha.
ytd went to my brother's passing out parade. it was so hot! but quite ok la. their mass food is quite nice actually. mifen, fishcake, chicken drumlets, popiahs, and cakes. their drink is also nice. sometimes mass food are cool and not so nice. and their drinks will be like tasteless. but this is different! waaa. but in the end after eating a bit while waiting for my brother, we went to swensen's and eat ice-cream and baked chicken rice. hmm. my brother's police shirt is nice. really. is like a class t-shirt those kind of shirt. it is his squad's personalized shirt. so nice la. maybe i will give that idea if our class ever wants a class tee. i think it will be nice but dont think many wont want to pay for such things even though they can be wear almost anywhere.
sometimes i just love playing with my brother but sometimes it is just irrtating. he likes to irritate when i am very pissed. he seemingly dunno how to play properly. since young, he likes to take away my things then in return, i scratch me. now, i snatch things from him and he injure me. sigh. hit very hard la. once, he used my band file and threw it on my head. it is like very thick? i think i added in 1 or 2 packages of refill and there are like more than one piece of paper in almost all the pockets. sigh. that heavy. my head did hurt. but nowadays i hardly hit or rebel back. i just ask him to shut up then when he find that i wont rebel, he give up and go back to his own stuffs.
next next week, 200706, the new committee will be announced. sigh. dunno to say if i am happy or sad. happy coz FINALLY there is a committee. sad coz the posts might not be as expected. esp sectional leaders. i doubt that there is ASL in the clarinet section this year. coz i heard that two clarinetists from the same level cant be SL and ASL together. as in SL and ASL cant be same age. gaa. dunno what i saying. so this year most slightly, 99.9% dont have ASL for us. this batch of sec4, they kinda changed some things. most of them are probably good. 2 new instruments are used coz of them and a new post is announced coz of them too. soprano saxophone and Eb clarinet are introduced into MCB. may and Wai Kit are the respective players for the first instruments. i heard that mr tan is buying a new Eb clarinet for theo to play. sigh. then 1st clarinet will only left 3 ppl. i suddenly wish for yangcheng to teach us. no punishments i wont learn. i know that. theo tried that on me and i practiced. i didnt realized that until i was discussing such topic with someone.
i rmb one sectionals, theo asked me to bring my music stand and music file down to the parade square that narrow path there. i am to stand there and practice "sinfornia classical". i didnt know that she asked me to practice all of the 3 movements. i only practiced the first one. then after quite a while, she came and test me. she was quite disappointed esp at the 2nd and 3rd movement. i really got no idea what is the tune of the song. i dunno why. maybe i really lack practice. she made me stand there and let all the ppl at the parade square stare hard at me. sigh. that was the last test she gave me. iwantanothertest. since then, i practiced all the songs that are given by mr tan. i think i can manage ross roy. but is just that i cant play well with everybody playing together. i cant get the same rhytem. esp when there are 4 1st clarinetists who are all as loud as each other. sometimes one or two person is louder and there goes the music. sigh. how wish the 4 of us could practice together. then we can improve from there. but i know there aint a possibility. whole section is more possible. theo has gotta handle the sec1. some are having big problems.
i cant bear to ignore u anymore. i really want to talk to u face-to-face. seeing u chatting happily away with that her, i felt like i am an extra person who pops out of your life suddenly and start to irritate u. i really dont like that feeling. i want to know if that is true. am i an extra part in your life? pls try to show me an answer. i really want it. i want to be more than just friends. good friends? but i know it wont happen. we talk but not often. we talked so much more during holidays. thrice per day. and every call lasts more than an hour and sometimes two hours. 4 hours a day for about 3 weeks is really a big deal of time. we spent about more than 60 hours talking on the phone. hearing u makes me feel like there is more to life than it is. when can we talk again? i miss those calls. i want to call u but the thoughts of the possibility that u might be talking to that her, i felt as if i shld ignore u. i wanted to tell u this: "let's stop calling each other. we talked on the phone but are speechless in class and school. wait till u sort out your feelings then let's start chatting again". but i just cant bring myself to say that. i really miss you. seeing our days of talking getting a lot lesser as more days goes pass, the sadder i becomes. although we are msging now, i feel as if i am very faraway from you. when can i step again into the world i want to go to?
u still love her. u wont give up. i still love HIM. and i wont give up. i guess there is no such chance that we will step into each other's path so i think ppl will have to get this straight. i guess i will only love HIM, the HIM that i loved since last year. it has been more than a year but there is still no outcome of improvment or deprovment. i dunno if i shld continue. but i guess he is right. he say liking her is akin liking a rock. i guess i am worst. they still do talk and msg and stuffs like that but i dont. me and HIM? no talks, no msg, no msn, but nothing. sigh. i am making such a big fuss out of it. nvm. i bring it upon myself, i suppose. i sent out the wrong signal. i really want to know what is HE thinking. i promise myself that i will look straight into his eyes and shall let him be the one who breaks the exchange or eye contact. i almost look away when i see that HE is looking back too. i shall and i will! at least before he leaves the school for another school. i do wish him all the best. i want to wish him luck. i shall set birds free to bring him good fortune. XP i rather give him all the luck that i have than keep than for myself. HIS o'levels are much more much more important . but come to think of it, this is my streaming year. sigh. i need some luck too. but i want to use hardwork rather than luck. i promised myself that i will study, just for him to see that i can study and i can score. i dowan him to be disappointed that he has got such a stupid junior. i want him to be happy that he has got such a nice clarinet section that was once under him. i respect him. i will look up to him as my idol, my goal, and the person whom i **** a lot a lot a lot. good luck for your o'levels! (:(:
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