i walked in the rain
i gave it twice the thoughts
i fell ill
i shall revive my dead blog with a new, fresh post. (:
heavenly. i walked in the rain! my hair got wet so i untied it. gosh. i think i must have looked weird. i was on the bus with kiesha back to TP when a nice person called. apparently i answered the call and it looks obvious that who is the caller. me and kiesha decided to find a cosy place for a hot drink. the sad thing is that the usual cosy shop we loved had closed down. we went to the not-so-cosy Banquet in the end. we ordered each a hot milo and started sipping while i was still on the line. kiesha kept making me talk to her so that the caller would get irritated and get off the phone. haha. but no, it didnt work. in the end we continued like this for nearly 40mins. then the caller went to watch a cartoon show while me and kiesha ordered a roti prata each. then the caller called back after the show and a bathe. i told u the caller is a nice person. (: from then, me and kiesha went home separately. i went into the library to collect a book which was under reservation by my brother. from there, i continued talking on the phone till i reached my granny's hse downstairs. but i continued talking till my aunt had to shout for me from upstairs. grr.
i asked to go out today with my friend(s). so many asked me out for the day but my mom rejected to all the request. sigh. now i am currently coughing like a crazy girl while blogging. gaa. i read on a blog that crazy is pronounced as KRAY-ZEH. interesting huh. i am really coughing like mad. dry cough? well. my mom thinks that i am having a fever. i dunno. she asked me to look for a thermometer to take my temperature. gaa. never. i hate taking temperature. it was hardly high or low, always normal so i think it looks useless to take temperature. i want to have fever, cough and flu. haha. meaning to go hospital. gaa. but i will worry someone a lot if it really happens, so i better be well. my voice changed. it keep going high then low. gaa. i want my voice back.
ytd was my slackest sectional i ever had. i slack so much ytd. i practically practiced only one song? haha. then played 3 or 4 songs together with a grp of other band members. hmm. pirates of the carribean(POTC), the last to defend(TLTD?), and dunno what else. ehh. only 2 songs meh? haha. i rmb got one more... sad. nvm. i really cant rmb. i rmb i keep going downstairs and eat. i skipped lunch. my mom told me to eat the lozenges after school. so i ate it. then it lasted for like 20mins? so i had to see ppl eat lunch while i suck the lozenges. gaa. i bought some chickens cutlets to eat but in the end i gave more than half to daffy to eat. i went home and told my mom about the lozenges and my lunch and she laughed so hard la. she meant that i eat it after school but i had to eat my lunch first. gaa. she didnt say properly. i wasted my brain cells last few days on maths and scolding ppl. and i used them to think of mushy things. haha. but i wasted them on scolding ppl. gaa. i shld have known better. my brain cells are mild-functioning.
i haven say what i did ytd. yeah. i keep going downstairs to watch our school's tkd! haha. so fun. see them kick. hmm. dunno what to say coz i dunno anything about tkd. (those who knows me very well would know what is the main reason for me to go downstairs. XP) haha. i went downstairs to eat. but in the end i chi bu xia then gave the pretzel to sarah to eat. still got like half a packet left bah, i think. then kiesha bought a hot milo to drink. it was a cold day. it rained very heavily at about 3.35pm and it was the time that tkd ended. haha. jill wanted to talk to weijie but in the end he went home in the heavy rain. dunno if he got get wet... i hope not! ehh. jilly finally made me want to tell him sth. but in the end he went home..! gaa. nvm. tell him again when i in that kind of mood. haha. i am evil.
i just realized that i didnt blog about the ushers at the drama center on the musical night. they sucks. they are downright pathetically bloody rude. i hate them. esp this particular one. this bloody woman is so rude. it states there on the ticket of everybody's that it is FREE SEATING. and wth. she keep forcing ppl to move here and there. she probably separated many grp of friends. she confiscated someone camera. they were just looking at the photos that were in the camera then that stupid bloody woman took it away. tony was quite nice to her. haha. best guy. he went out of his seat to the aisle to talk to someone or something like that. then that stupid woman came by and asked him for his ticket. then i forgot what happened. gaa. but i think this is what happened. but i know that the stupid woman was quite irritated. haha. her own problem. who cares about her. not us for sure. anyways i saw ben and weijie they all. and i saw waikit also. i finally got over this matter. i think i have. oh yeah. i rmb i got my head hit (or knocked) by ben, weijie and yuki. gaa. so pain...
stupid woman reminds me of the national day rehearsal. wth! we sec2 actually can enjoy ourselves in the rain with our classmates and friends at sungei buloh but in the end we still gave it up and attended this ndp rehearsal. all the sec2 went to the rehearsal other than gabriel. who cares la. he is like the only sec2 that didnt come for the rehearsal la. we got so fed up. theo didnt go for her tuition and came back to conduct us coz may has to go for her chemistry practical. 1st clarinet got only me! angeline, ver and huiwen went for the logistic maths program. dunno what issit. then only huiwen came back. gaa. as in for the clarinet section la. isabelle skipped HCL for this rehearsal. our only method left is to let the sec1 play. it was NOT our choice! we couldnt do anything about it. isabelle had to play the 1st clarinet part coz may says i cant handle it or sth like that. we did so changes and anything. in the end? that idiotic principal we made "grand march" sound like a death song instead of a slow march. shit her i felt like telling her straight in her face that this is a song for her. idiot. where got principal so discouraging? yeah. the MFSS principal. damnit. that day was the worst day of the band. everybody is like overpowering the band. it is like so many teachers and the principal and vice-principal were there to overpower this rehearsal. they said the choir were singing behind us during the national athem. well, none of us heard them. mr lam is also another idiot. he think he what? pro conductor issit? which band gets conducted by two conductors at the same time? yeah. mcb. theo was like saying that he conduct himself. then he was like "dowan la.i not sure". damn him la. he faked it. FAKER! when there are 2 conductors, i treat him like an invisible person. i kept moving myself to look at theo conduct. i dont care about him. i moved till quite obvious. isabelle looked at me. haha. but pls la. theo can conduct better than him la. he is like so want to overpower us. gotohell.damn that idiotic mr lam. i hate him! there are more ppl who hates him more than the amt of ppl who likes him. *pukes* huiwen say that his face is permanent to show his sadness.
i am currently chewing on a lozenges again. sigh. i think this lozenges isnt helping my sore throat. it tastes sweet and it melts easily. i guess haven 5mins this lozenges will be gone. haha. but the sore throat will still be there. gaa. ahhh.........choo! i am tempted to use the phone and call.
i think i have gotten over the matter of this particular senior. i finally know whats the feeling like to be loved and to love. i dare say that i love him. this "him" isnt a reference to the senior whom i was kray-zeh over. this "him" is one whom i love and loves me. a feeling tells me so that this will last. but a feeling also tells me so that it will not last. i dunno. i hope it does. i really dunno what to do if i fall into a broken relationship. the other time i broke down when a previous love broke. but i got back on my heals again. leon reminds me constantly about it. i hope he doesnt reminds me again. i really dowan to rmb anything of that past. i decided to keep this relationship that i am looking forward to, simple but loving. those who knows thinks that the both of us shld really try go further rather than just friends or being 'brothers and sisters'. i dunno if i am doing the right thing or wrong thing. i am giving myself time to recover my lost and regain the feel to get into a new relationship. i want this to be a success. i envy those couples whom kiss and hug and hold hands and go out often. even though theirs might be a forbidden love. forbidden love might be torturing but it brings in more fun and more memorable times. i dunno if this is referred as a forbidden love. class committee shldnt be giving any form of troubles. afterall class committee is only for this year. who knows what might happen next year and in the near future? the thing that is stopping me from agreeing is the fact that he excels far more than me in everything. and i suppose this will bring up a lot of conflicts. i feel inferior. he is too good for me. i dunno what to do. i broke down days back coz of him. broke down twice in a row. i almost broke down the third time but he consoles me. i resists from crying. but the tears were for real. that day i walked into my room after getting rejected by my mom. she disallow me to use the phone for the night. i didnt flare up but instead i walked into my room, closed the door softly and sat down on my table with the air-con switched on. i stared at my handphone and my hse phone next to me. i thought about why didnt i flare up. then i realized that i have grown up more. i hate flaring up at my parents and my family members. the more i flare up, the more they will disagree and the more they will forbid me. i finally got this into my head. and at that moment, i cried. then my handphone rang. i answered. i told the caller that i couldnt answer phone calls for the night. he understood and knew almost at once that i am crying and that i am sad. he said words that were smoothing to my ears and i smiled. we put down the phone and msg. he consoles me again and thot it was his fault wholely that i was crying. i told him he wasnt the main reason of my break down. but he was the reason why i started thinking about such things. i dunno if this is good or bad. but i know that i shldnt be thinking too much nowadays. tests and exams are coming up soon. in anyways, i supposed studies come first. afterall, this year is streaming year. i want double science that stream. that stream got almost what i like. aiya. i guess i just want to concentrate on my studies and get over this year. then next year can be a fun year which i can play! then sec4 must suffer like siao. o's. haha. okiie. i shall rest now. i feel ill and i am.
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