will i ever see, you smiling back at me?
oh yeahh, how will i know?
if i let u go.
gaa. i really cant rmb what has been happening. ehh. well, me and *someone has not been talking for days. i really feeling depresssd now. dont provoke me. i am currently thinking of a method of "how to think positively". i think i am succeeding in some ways or another. i'm sure i met ppl who influenced me. but i dunno who. hmm. maybe benedict? haha. seeing him so happy all day long sometimes do make me feel happy too. influencing me. gaa. maybe this is counted as a good influence. i dunno what has been getting into me lately. i have been very self-conscious. must be due to last friday's measuring of height and weight. sigh. nvm. i grew fat again. i dowan go taf club. waste time la. every morning actually can sit in the parade square peacefully look at ppl and read a book (although i dont read). lucky i didnt drop into that category. hmm. but sadly i am going to. nvm. dont talk about weight. i hate it. is my height la! i dunno why i getting shorter within the years. since p5 or p6 till now, i have not grew even a CM. sigh. 1cm also cant grow. make me feel so depress. gaa.
next event is band. sigh. band always got something that MUST happen to create misunderstandings. may said that the clarinet section sound like shit. hmm. shit? she was referring to the national athem if i didnt rmb wrongly. the notes for 1st clarinet were a bit high. but is like very common for us to play such notes. it is the "old comrades march" that has the high notes. the notes are like above the staff. (i forgot how to spell.) let's see. there is E, Eb, F, and G. G is the one that always go out of tune. and sth wrong with my clarinet la. sometimes can play that Eb, somtimes cannot. most of the time cannot. usually come to that note i skip it. last time can one loh. must be i hardly use it so it rust. i have been using this clarinet for quite a long while. actually i just realized it only. haha. i rmb which day i got it. haha. that day was someone's birthday. it was so funny when i think back. haha. if you ppl reading this are getting it wrong, hmm. well, it is a girl's. haha. gotcha. XP
hmm. i dont think i am getting depressed anymore. haha. i am now currently talking to that *someone. heez. feeling happily great. perhaps i going overboard. let's see. lynda says that i am stepping on two boats. haha. like real la. i dowan to like other ppl. and i wont. other that HIM i wont have feelings for others even if HE goes. i dont care. i maybe getting stubborn but i dont care! it is like what for? i still haven talk to him. all are like unsuccessful tries. or shld i say, i dont even want to try?
i starting to think that i have been thinking too much. hmm. i think i better start thinking simple. hmm. and POSITIVELY! ehh. positive and simple!!! my aim for the month. i failed my last month's aim. sigh. the aim to talk to........ nvm. it is over.
oh yeah. ITALY won!!! yes yes yes! i know this is like old old news. but i still very happy about it. haha. i now must learn to be happy over small trivial matters. (:
remarkable results!