looking back at my past and wondered about it
did i made any grave mistakes?
i knew i did last weekend ):
rawr.
no ankle socks tmr.
no tucking out of shirts tmr.
no handphones tmr.
gaa.
I DONT CARE!
i gonna wear ankle socks tmr.
at the most i just pull higher.
i gonna tuck out my shirt as usual.
hmm.
maybe i tuck in certain parts.
but i really dowan to bring handphone tmr.
i dowan to risk it.
i love my handphone. X)
it brings me happiness.
though it brought me sadness too
but i dont mind.
at least i know the truth
so as not to hurt myself further.
oh gosh.
u are still at it.
why cant u just get over it?
...
...
...
i gotta fight back.
i dowan to get over it.
and yes, i AM still thinking about the past that is unreal.
yes, i AM still wanting it to happen again.
yes, i do NOT mind getting hurt once again.
...
...
...
dont be dumb.
u know if u continue getting hurt, u are not getting anywhere.
just forget it.
concentrate on other things.
i didnt meant concentrate on other ppl.
just other things.
u can continue hurting yourself.
but bear in mind this:
NOBODY WILL CARE EVEN IF U DIES ):
sigh.
i decided not to go for the tokyo kosei wkshop.
it was only 2days back that i managed to photocopied a few copies.
i had to decided within that few moments.
i knew if i wanted to go
i needed to post in everything by sat morning.
i didnt even get the cheque signed yet.
i think my dad forgot about it.
i dont even know if i told him.
my mom allow me to go
i suppose my dad allow me to go.
hmm.
but i just forgot all about it
until josiah reminded me about it on friday.
i knew it was too late to do anything.
i really felt lazy.
a sudden urge of not going came upon me.
so i didnt ask for the cheque.
sigh.
but miaos called me.
then she said she going
and she sent in the form and cheque already.
i dunno what to do or say.
so i told her the truth
i not going.
i thot jilly and daffy are going.
but things turned out differently.
none are going.
only miaos.
it seems too late to send in any forms now.
sigh.
i hate making decisions.
it is due to this hatred that resulted me into many depressions.
i guess i gotta learn to make decisions.
today so happy! (:
i went out with my family members to have a lunch at Kushin-bo.
we had a fulling lunch.
yummy XD
*smacks lip
after that most of them went to Courts to buy my brother a digital camera
for his upcoming birthday.
then me and my dad went to the jig-saw puzzle world.
heex.
i bought another jig-saw.
500pieces.
gundam seed destiny. (:
i am gonna start doing it tmr or on tuesday.
i can finish it in a few hours. XD
then after purchasing the camera,
we went to Royal Sporting House.
before that we went to Adidas. (my fav!)
guess what?
i met chee kheng!
lalala. X)
anyways.
i FINALLY managed to buy a sneakers!
yay!
i always go out but end up buying nothing.
now i finally bought a nice pair of sneakers.
i gonna wear it to school tmr.
see who is the first to notice.
haha.
is puma.
i wanted adidas
but my aunt, uncle and brother
wanted me to buy something more feminine.
they say i shld learn to be more feminine.
gaa.
i hate that.
but i know i gotta.
i am a girl afterall.
XD
after shopping we went for dinner back in toa payoh.
and i met someone again.
heex.
i met this tkd junior.
i knew her the most among all the tkd juniors.
hmm.
know her not very well
but enough to always say "hi" to each other when we met.
sometimes we even give each other food
if we are holding one.
haha.
sadly, i dunno her name.
i go ask ben tmr.
haha.
must remind myself.
anyways
i know her last mth during this tkd competition.
sigh.
that is the day when i thot my happiness would last.
but sadly
i was wrong once again.
but i will nvr regret it.
it is after all what i wanted.
(:
no regrets! X)
sigh.
tmr maths class test.
and i am still here typing an entry.
gaa.
i must be crazy.
i still owe mr james tan 3 hmwk.
i completed 2.
there is still 1 more.
heex.
i think i do during tmr's recess.
ask xiaotou to pei wo?
hmm.
maybe.
i just ask and see if she wants.
dowan then i do myself.
but nowadays cant stay in class.
gaa.
i suddenly feel excited.
i want to go school tmr.
i feel excited whenever i see HIM.
i guess it is that thought that is making me excited now.
i nvr regreted whatever i did.
i hope HE understands. (:
lalala.
remarkable results!