changed BLOGSKIN! (:
lalala.
daphne's blogskin.
is nice.
i love white XD

today.
BAND EXCHANGE!
heex.
so funny.
East Spring Military Band.
their percussion section is darn good.
THAT percussionist is cute. XP
anyways.
yeah.
that's all that is... good.
haha.
i know i evil
but is... true?
nvm.
i know i ain't that good to comment.
heex.
amazing grace is like SO ez?!
gaa.
1 page only.
then all holding notes.
want me die ar?
nvm.
*deep breathe

so...
East Spring sec looks fun.
at least room is air-conditioned.
so shuang. XD
ehh.
prefer Huayi Band.
heex.

after the exchange
went to have lunch opp. sch with
Benjamin, Bjorn, Donavan, Fu Hui, Kiesha, Kwang Yong, Hong Wei, Justin, dunno-who.
i think that's all.
i feel that i missed out one name
other than myself.
hmm.
nvm.
then we ate.
then me and kiesha went to thomson plaza.
i went to collect sth for my mommy.
then we went to look for a shop.
ice-cream shop.
hey BJORN.
bleahx.
u didn't come with us.
their ice-cream is nice. (:
the shop is a bit pinkish.
is tended by 2 guys.
haha.
pink shop.
is a bit of cosy there.

kiesha felt nausea today.
and now i am feeling nausea.
i ate an apple.
then i drank a cup of water.
drink halfway then i feel bloated.
like want to vomit out every single thing.
bleah*
gosh.
i feel REAL terrible.

i am currently waiting for
my lovely samsoon to film.
haha.
today's episode is nice!
sanshi FINALLY admit his love for samsoon.
gosh.
it DID took him long to admit. XP

i wished upon a star
hoping that what happened will happen once again.
letting history repeat itself.
but i want to change the ending.
i want a happy ending.
but now, i am afraid of love
will things turn out to be the better?
things are different when it is a happy ending.
the mood of the endings change one's perception about love.
to me,
love is not sth that will always result in fruitful and happy endings.
love.
a simple yet complicated word that caused me happiness and sadness.
is ppl outside there sharing the same fate as me?
or am i the only me having this fate?
i do hope there is someone out there that i can reach for.
i once thot that i reached to the a point where i can relax.
but i was wrong,
once again.
why make me go thru the troubles to find another place to relax?
this is the last time i am going thru the troubles.
i promise myself.
NEVER will i create troubles for myself.
until i arrive at the point of time that i grow mature to accept grief and pain better.
perhaps then i will learn to relax.
but right now,
i am moving on
on my own.

i always told ppl
love is not painful.
love does not hurt.
but when it comes to myself,
i feel... hurt.
grief.
i am dying