my days are numbered.
suicide or hospital death?
band practice today.
Beauty and the Beast was given out.
it requires "one player" at 3 parts for 1st clarinet.
I, Justin and Jilly played. (:
then played Poetic Intermezzo.
Benjamin gave me THAT look after my solo.
ehh.
is theodora's solo. yeah. theodora's! XD (glad to know that)
but Kiesha said it was okiie.
adding that it wasn't better than theodora's.
HEY.
i cant nvr be better than her.
it seems to me that theodora IS the best player i had met.
nobody is yet better than her, to me. (:
next we played Abram's Pursuit.
i screwed it once again.
i shall not bawl over it. ): ): ):
there is mostly sec1 and sec2 today.
less than 10 sec3.
i felt real lost without Theodora.
is like my mind went blank at those hard parts.
like running notes and 2 players' parts.
and i felt pissed in the ltr part of the practice.
then i almost flared up.
sigh.
i apologize for my actions and words.
i really was at a lost and anger.
i told u i dunno what to do when Theodora is not in.
now currently listening to band music.
i realized that i am gaining back my interest in band day by day.
but the cca stand-down is gonna affect the growth of interest.
sigh.
shld i or shld i not?
cip or sectionals?
i thot i would choose cip.
but my final decision is sectionals.
i dowan to be thought to be desperate.
coz i really ain't.
what for?
is like as if things will be as it was previously.
i dowan to bawl on it over again.
Brenda was transferred to play bass clarinet
from Friday onwards.
clarinet section now got 14 ppl.
from 20 over ppl to 14.
Benjamin made weird comments about the transfer.
haha. he is so funny but EVIL!
*yawn.
today is moomoo's b`day.
ms moo.
oh wells.
Happy Birthday to MS MOO!!! (:
Moooooooooooooooooooo...
yeah. i know i am evil.
haha. XP
remarkable results!